Admired the rainbow @ 1:37 AM

LOng Time...

yeah i know its been awhile. im at tech center right now. wit austin and scott. theyre arguin about myspace. lol. guys.

anyways... i have class at 11. and yeah i lost my goddamn cell phone. im gonna got oTmobile store earlier and im gonna get a new card same number.

spring quarter is already fun. its only like the 3rd day. but i love it. i should get a 4.0 for math. have to. anyways.. im gonna hang out with austin this weekend. tight stuff.

i gotta go.

Admired the rainbow @ 3:30 AM

Admired the rainbow @ 6:08 AM

2 posts in one day... bored i guess...


yeah, im at the library.. waitin for mah night class. listenin to some songs from my ipod. ahh. and finally, i got my hw done. lolz.
well,.. ive been doin alot of thiknin lately..bout which uni i should go to.. 1st choice.. still texas. 2nd berkeley. 3rd ucla.4th UW.5th uni wisconsin. haha.. so if i realy get accepted in wisconsin..im gonna hang out with JT!! thats gonna be kool.

but anyways.. im kinda bored here. scott's talkin to some japanese gurls. that bastard.lol but hes a good guy really.

ah,, im gonna start writing this in Indo.. hmm
jadi begini critanya...

bingung gw mo nulis apa. gyaaa..bodoh.
anywyas, iye.. tiba2 gw kepikiran ma sanur.. kangen gw.. ma tman2 gw.. dan kehijauannya.. yah walopun skolah gw disini juga ijo2 tapi berbeda. entah lha.. gw seneng disini jujur. tapi knp gw merasa ad aj yg beda. ya iyalah beda.. maksud gw.. gw disini bisa dibilang enak. bebas. as in dlm peraturan ga ketat. baju seenaknya. dikelas juga mo makan minum seenak jidat.

mungkin lo smua mikirnya enak. bebas. tapi sejujur2nya.. gw ngerasa ad yang nggak aja dr smua itu. jujur.. gw lebi menghargai waktu gw slama gw disanur. gw ngerasa ad yg nggak saja.
dan yah.. menurut gw...nikmatinlah waktu lo slama disanur. ntar klo lo udah kluar.. pasti lo akan kangen dgn segala keresean2 sanur. percaya lah sama gw. gw dah hampir seaton kluar dr sanur.. dan gw bisa ngerasain. gw enjoy disni..tmen2 gw asik smua.yah hanya saja.. tak tahu lah.. gw hanya rindu mungkin.

ya sudah lah.. i just wanted to get that off my chest. i have class to attend in 45 mins. better get myself prepared.

well i still got some time though. =P. aduh saya bingung nih.. tadi gw pas luch ktmu ma camron dishes. haha.. dya crita ttg tmen swedish-nya.. ARGHHHH~~!!! sial.. gw yakin dya pasti knla Martin.. 2 gebetan gw bertemu. tidak terdengar bgtu bagus. lolz. yg satunya dah mantan si.. hatiku kini hanya untuk martin seorang. hhaa..

anyways.. i gotta go.. ttyl b ye

Admired the rainbow @ 1:04 PM

Geez, Finally.. I went thru that shit...


the only thing i have to face now is.. the fact that i might need to change my schedule again. FUCK it. i just talked to courtney on msn, and apparently, she's skipping school. that lil bitch. i have class tonite. english. and now. im trying to do my homework. TRYING. theres just a bunch of stuff...uhmm well.. theyre distracting me. i'm really2 sleepy. I'm waiting for andi to finish his class and were goin to get something to eat. seriously, havent had anything since last night.

Anyways, the last few weeks ive been compelety sober. to be honest, well ive been having some serious problems, but i always believe somethning good will come along. and im still waiting for that thing. is it gonna be the thing i'm askin for?? haha. we'll see.

soot. i better keep my mouth shut.

Admired the rainbow @ 9:46 AM

...Welcome to my World... (Double Clutch)

Everytime I try to see things from the other side
I think that i might lose my mind
I'm a hopeless case, I'm losing face
So many wrongs to be erased
Sometimes I wish someone would take my place

Welcome to my world, my life
When nothing that I say is right
And nothing that i do can change a thing

This is my day, my way
I wanna say goodbye to yesterday
I'm afraid of what tomorrow's luck will bring

Admired the rainbow @ 7:21 AM

...Tomorrow is the 1st day of Winter Quarter...


I'm ssooooo excited. i Love school. i really do. haha.. seriously, school is fun. real fun. its not just about all those formulas, theories and all that kind of crap. Its bout friends.
Speaking of friends...i kinda miss my friend back in indo and Oz. My Oz friends, i wonder where they are now... some are already in college i guess.. i just saw Mel pics on fs.. haha.. i kinda miss her. its been 5 frickin years. cant believe it.
when i come back to Indo this june.. im kinda thinkin bout goin to Oz and meet my besties.. we'll see lah. cuz i'd prolly have to go to germany to see my sis wif my mom. we'll see.

Listening to the ataris right now.ahhhh im hella bored. u know what.. i think i hate that girl.
i thought she was a good girl and all that. but ..i dunno i think shes kinda selfish which i hate alot. fuck it. dun wanna think abpout that kind of thing nemore.
school...school...school... thats all i have to think about. I have to improve my grades. seriously. its still good though. it was just.. not satisfying. i know i couldve done way much better.

ive made my new year's resolution...but sorry guys.. i dun feel lyk telling. =P you'll find out.
im goin to school after im done with this. im gonna pay my tuition. and prolly meet some hot guys. lols. nah. just jokin.

Admired the rainbow @ 10:03 AM

So It's New Year...

Hell Yeah... It's 2006 baby!! New Year, New Life...
Damn, I feel sooooo good..If I could have just one wish...It'd be THAT!! It's just something unimportant...but it means alot to me. So, like... this year i spent the most important thing, the countdown thing on the street.. haha...soo stupid... but u know what...i was looking at the sky, was making my wish for next year... when it suddenly rained!!! haha...does it mean that my wish is gonna come true?? well i hope so... i really do..


so.. i just wanted to say ::

Admired the rainbow @ 7:12 PM

I should be grateful for everything…..


Tonight is Christmas Eve…. I’m here sitting alone in my room… thinking bout all I’ve been through this year. I know it’s not New Year’s Eve yet, but I just thought it might be good to start reviewing.

Last year... this time... I was in Germany, celebrating Christmas with my sister, and now. Where am I? Yes... I’m in America!!! It’s just the place where I’ve always wanted to be and I know I always will. Just love this place…Ever since I got here last September... I’ve learned a lot than I could have ever imagined.

So many things happened this year…and I never regret any of them. Some of them have made me realize something I’d never really thought before. Though I broke up with Jay... it didn’t make me cry my ass off…I know it wasn’t gonna change anything… I’m thankful that God sent him to my life... He taught me a lot.. Whatever he did for me is what has carried me all the way. I know if I hadn’t met him, I would never have been what I am now. So after one year and six months... we decided to end it. I still love him in a very different way… I love him as my brother and my best friend. We’re still friends until this very second, and I hope we always will be.

I have to thank my mom for letting me come here to study… I’ve met millions different kinds of people from different parts of the world. .. And It’s kinda changed my perspective of life. I love the way they treat me… well, yeah MOST of them… and I learned something…Treat people that way you want to be treated…And I have a huge respect for them. And I’ve got zillions of good friends here... and I love them as much. It’s just as good as I’ve imagined.

And I guess my life has changed a lot. Since I got here… everything’s changed and it changed for the better. So I’ve been here for like almost 4 moths but it feels like I’ve been here forever. That’s all because of the good time I’ve been having… Remember when I told you about the snow fight?? Gee, I loved it a lot. Thanks to all CCA residents. Lolz. Especially Mark, Cameron, Johnny, Ryan, Hiroyuki, Mai, Gran, Curtis, Naomi, Yuki, Luke and those who were on my team. We rocked!! ~~too bad we didn’t take a pic of our team…hix...~~

If I were asked what I wanted for Christmas, it definitely would be…happiness (which I’ve already got). And that happiness is the kind of happiness that comes from all the people around me.

So, I’d like to thank all of you, for being such incredible friends of mine, and for all your support that has brought me here and made me “me”. I don’t know what I’m gonna do without you guys. I love you.


(Written on Dec 24, 2005)

Admired the rainbow @ 12:42 PM